Quick note: I’m writing in a new space, not because the old doesn’t work more because I want to get rid of some of the useless things that take my time away from reflection and meditation. However, words are vital in my process, being able to express ideas and thoughts are vital, so I thought it was time for a new experiment. One that hopefully will lead to next steps and new thoughts. So let me just start by saying thanks for listening…

Ok, I have heard it all before, in fact I know that I have said it before. This time it will be different. This time I’m going to do things the way that I think that they should be done. I’m going to change, stop doing the self destructive behavior, stop waiting for the right moment to do the things that I have been wanting to do, to change… I find myself in an incredible reflective state, pondering such questions as; what’s next? Who am I? What is really important to me? All the while feeling like I need to make changes. But what changes? What things need to change? Is it my diet? My exercise? My thoughts? My time with God? How about my time in general? I don’t really know the answers to these questions. I guess that is why I’m writing this. I see this new blog, not as a place to brag about my life, rather I see this as a form of spiritual and mental therapy. A chance to think through these thoughts that I have been having. I’m not even sure yet if I’m going to tell people I have this site. I know that I could journal these thoughts but lately that hasn’t happened I spend more time on this machine then I do anywhere else some days so why not incorporate part of my journey as well. If this sounds like ramblings, it probably is, it is 2:30 in the morning and I’m boarding on delirium. Back to my thought, I know that by putting myself out there, so to speak, is a risk, I could say things that rub people the wrong way, they might be things I don’t even mean, however I recognize that I process through words I need to be able to think through thoughts and go back and look at what was said, not only that but I thrive on feedback. Being able to have impute into these ideas whether good or bad I believe can help in my journey. So here I am a simple minded guy looking to answer a few questions and hopefully make a new beginning.

In Him,

Brian